Friday, September 28, 2012

Silver Soul

     It's almost been a month since I started my senior year of high school and nothing seems to have changed. I'm still in the same place as I was last year. I still don't relate to the majority of my school. I'm still the same cynical young girl. The only thing separating this year from the other three is that the end is now in sight. The future is brewing on the horizon. I can see it from where I stand now, but it's hazy for I'm unsure of what awaits me. Soon I will be confronted with life-altering choices. And while I'm excited, I'm also terrified. I feel so torn.
     I am going to college. I don't know where or for what; all I know is that I'm going. 
     For the longest time, my dream school was FIDM. My greatest life ambition was to be a fashion designer but now I have doubts. It's not that I stopped loving fashion, I've just discovered I have other passions. Writing and photography have been so prominent in my life this past year that I'm convinced that I want to pursue either or. I just don't know which one to choose. I know I could incorporate both into my life/career but I want to pick one of them to really focus on. But which one? Eventually I will be able to answer this question. But right now, I wish someone would tell me what to do so I wouldn't have to make the decision myself. I wish someone could forecast the future and tell me which path would lead me to success. 
     While I weigh out the pros and cons of each pathway, I cannot help but think of that famous Robert Frost quote:

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— 
I took the one less traveled by, 
And that has made all the difference."

     As cliche as it is, it's relevance to my dilemma is too significant to ignore. I have so many pathways and roads to explore and opportunities to seize! I'm so young. The big world is splayed before me, offering so many different things yet I'm paralyzed. I don't know what I want. I don't know who I am. I don't know what kind of impact I want to make. I don't know where I'm going. I don't have direction. I'm so scared. Yet so enthralled with it all. I could do anything! I can be anyone I please! I could go anywhere. I can fulfill my dreams. 
     When the time comes, I know I will take the road less traveled by and it will make all the difference. 

 These photos are taken by me.

1 comment:

  1. All your pictures are absolutely amazing! You're such an artist!